hi

Today i heard a news regarding Bill Gates.When he was asked that if no indians were allowed to work in his Microsoft Co,what he will do ? He had immdly replied that he would shift his company to India itself. Wow, tears were getting filled in my eyes out of sheer enjoyment and proudness.
I was the only girl in family growing happily between two brothers! see i did not have any competition!!! The things i used to concentrate was in studies and extracurricular activities .. i learnt to dance "Bharatanatiyam" when i was young..but could not continue due to silly reasons.Still i luv to dance , jump around.. i used to lock my door turn on the music system .. and dance to all my favourite songs. That made me more energetic and active. Then i learnt the instrument "Veenai" unfortunately i could not continue that too.. i got married and settled had to travel places,got two kids.. now very busy with them.
I used to luv Michael Jackson's songs selectively.. like "Heal the World",make it a better place. OH my i even used to write those lyrics and byheart them.Sing them ...alone when nobody is listening. My only problem is that i have been hesitating a lot .. to do anything.. to ask for anything..
All thru my life i was in a shell .. that unknown invisible shell surrounded around me and commanded my limitations. I want to teach my young girl not to be like this.. cos this will cause inferiorty complex and this stupid complex will stop u from doing anything productive.I wanted to be initiative,wanted to be the best among the group.. i have put my steps in almost everything that i have been exposed to.. but i could not achieve anything big. All thru my life i have a deep feeling inside about the things iam lacking.. and there r many unanswered questions too arising within me..
I keep fighting with all my friends get angry on even the small things they do .. i was very possessive. i lost many such friends but still have two best friends now.
I have always wondered why women r not able to maintain friendships and other relationships after their marriage.I felt Marriage as a division in life which makes one to forget all their past friends. I lost in touch with many after marriage.One becomes so engulfed in one's own married life that they often forget about many important things in life.